I guess I'm selfishly writing this entry to bring a little bit of joy and distraction to my otherwise nausea/anxiety ridden days. To get out everything I've been feeling and to tell the world that we are officially expecting baby #2 (technically baby #3). Right now, due date is December 20th, so we may really have a Christmas baby on our hands! Yes, some people would consider it too early to tell everyone that we're pregnant, but if anything were to happen, we would not want to keep it a secret.
Since we found out, I've been hoping and praying that this pregnancy would be "normal". As in, no miscarriage/no bleeding. With Elijah, I had a small chorio-amniotic separation, which was like a little pocket of blood that would burst everytime it got full. After having a miscarriage 3 months prior, you can imagine how anxious I was. But, now we have a beautiful 10 month old baby boy that I would do it all over for again!
I was super surprised that I had made it to 6 weeks without any bleeding, but it started yesterday and of course we went to the hospital, where they confirmed that we have a 6week, 2 day old living, heart-beating baby inside of me. Yes, a sigh of relief, but still on edge about all the "what-ifs". I was so thankful for the ultrasound technician, who let Dustin in the room and talked about what he was seeing the on the screen the entire time. With past experiences, they hadn't let Dustin come with me, and they had been very straight faced, not giving me ANY information (which I'm sure is hospital policy). The ultrasound tech did see a subchorionic hematoma, which is just another fancy word for a pocket of bleeding. Prayers are that it doesn't progress and the baby continues to grow!
So, that's one thing I've been very anxious about. The other is my nausea. I have been feeling quite terrible day in and day out for about a week now, and truth be told, it's making me really depressed. Watermelon and strawberries are about all I can stomach right now, hoping the doctor can make some suggestions when I see her tomorrow.
I have to remind myself to take it a day at a time, and know that in time, it will get better. We will see what my doctor says tomorrow; she was really good at taking almost weekly ultrasounds when I was pregnant with Elijah, so I'm hoping she'll be able to closely monitor this pregnancy also!
We are excited and nervous and thankful...and I'm so happy to have let all that out!
